What You Write When You Have Nothing To Say
{You write the truth}
I push the keyboard away. My frustration feels like a churning ocean in the middle of my gut, and I just can’t even.
Once again, I’ve thought of lovely words to say, done some research, and now feel that I have nothing of substance or import to offer.
Ouch.
I had planned to start with a familiar author’s work, and expand on it — then I find that said author has literally already written the article. And it’s amazing.
Who wants to pay for boxed mac’n’cheese when they can get gourmet, artisanal pasta for free??
Add in a few other factors —morning pages have got me down, all the articles I’m reading by the pros on Medium are contradicting my what-I-thought-were-good ideas, and I’ve yet to earn a red cent for writing anything— and, yeah. Like I said. Never mind that it’s not 2006, I can’t even.
And I feel like yesterday’s mac’n’cheese. The boxed kind. Stuck to the counter top. All dried up and yucky.
And this is how it is. It’s not pretty, neat, or inspiring. It just is.
And yet, here I am, writing it down.
Yes, I feel like I feel like people are tired of reading it even before I hit publish.
Yes, I feel like I have nothing of value to add to the conversation.
And yes, I squirm in my chair when I think about the fact that I call myself a writer.
But those are feelings. Though they’re real, they are not facts.
The facts are these:
I am writing.
I will click ‘publish,’ and continue to meet my goal of publishing something for 30 days straight.
I will not always feel this way — not every day is like today.
I will learn to add value to the conversation by continuing to do the work.
These are the facts, and I refuse to let the feelings get the last word.
And so, there you go. I wasn’t kidding when I chose the title — I literally do not have anything else to tell you. No real answers. Just what I am feeling and thinking. I promise, I don’t intend to turn Medium into my personal diary and bore you with my private, inner pep talks. Thanks for getting this far. You’re awesome!
